not getting any better.

Since my last post, I have been trying to think on a positive plane. Attempting to erase all of these bad thoughts that have been swimming through my head for god only knows how long. But every time I try to do that, I end up lying in bed, tossing and turning (even if it's in the middle of the day) wishing that I could just hold onto someone and scream and cry until my lungs can't take it anymore. I hate feeling so hollow and alone, yet any time I try to get away from it, the feeling just intensifies. It just hurts. And I can't escape any of it.