Getting to know myself.

This is my first entry on this site, and I don't know how many people will read it, at least not yet.

There have been a lot of changes in my life in the last several months. There have also been a lot of disappointments. I have felt myself unraveling as of late. I rarely ever want to go to work, I rarely want to really do anything. I can't stand that I have been so depressed and just flat out sad over the last few months. I hate people seeing me that way. I'm supposed to be the token black guy that hangs out with people, cracks jokes and has drinks with them. I don't like exposing myself the way I have. But lately I have reached my boiling point and I can't take it anymore.

Looking forward, I just want more out of life. I want more for myself. I want more for the people I associate myself with. I feel time passing me by, and I haven't done a damn thing with my life up to this point. There is so much more that I want to do, so much more I want to experience. And I just want to get rid of all this pain and heartache.